Always the Awkward

So, this is more of a diary for me.
If you've stumbled upon this blog, go on and read. If you can relate, I'm glad. I hardly find people to relate to these days...

I've always been awkward. Since when? Since birth. My family always described me as someone super shy but when I make friends, I can't seem to stop talking to those friends. Then, the awkward distance comes. I guess you can only take me in small doses.

High School, my teachers push me to talk more. They made me do live reports and stuff to get me to talk. I learned to talk but that didn't take out the awkward in me...

College, I became feisty but still awkward. I just won't let people step all over me. That doesn't mean I wasn't socially weird. As always, people take me in small doses. Heck, family take me in small doses.

I'm now 32. I'm still awkward. I learned how to cope but I'm still awkward. I can walk in front of a crowd and host a gathering of hundreds, tell a speech, say my script but when the mic's away, I'm lost.